Greetings to all my amazing readers,
I received a text message from a friend the other night. It wasn't like her usual texts which began with, 'Miss you a lot!' Instead it read, 'Miss you, but not as much as I used to.' I should have felt hurt naturally but I realized, I didn't feel hurt at all, but then I felt guilty because the reason I wasn't hurt was because I didn't miss her as much anymore either. I started thinking and I came up with a theory for myself, "It's ok to move on with your life as you move on with your life every day."
I graduated from high school last year. My friends and I made plans for the summer holidays. How we were going to spend the holidays together, go to university together, be friends for life. How ignorant I was... today, we attend different tertiary institutions and the last time we saw each other was the day we graduated from high school! We didn't see each other for the entire holiday and during Easter, we planned to see each other but planning is all we did... At times, I felt angry with them and myself but then I realized that it wasn't fair of me to feel anger towards them; just as it wasn't fair of them to be angry with me because it would be the same as hating life for changing all the time which is something no one can control.
Of course, I still care about them and I fondly think of memories sometimes but I have accepted that high school is in my past now and so are the amazing people who were a part of it. It is a sad thought to think that our relationships with people can just fade with the different phases of our lives but let's face - change is inevitable and what else, the faces across the table from us are changing all the time. One day it won't be your brother and sister with sticky faces at the dinner table but your own children at the table while you wipe their sticky faces!
What a scary thought readers, that life is like a roller coaster ride. Fast, unpredictable, and different at every turn and bend. I am enjoying college at the moment and have made many amazing friends. I don't know whether we will be friends for life, just for the year or just for the term but I know that even though people leave as fast as they come into our lives, there is always a reason why certain people are in our lives during the different phases in our lives, so I'll appreciate them while I have them.
My message to everyone, it's ok to move on with your life. It's ok to not think about people all the time that you used to text all day. It's ok to accept change and to move on. A plus is that it is also much healthier to let go of your past to make room for the future. So let's all get out of our dusty time machine's people and get into our limo's of the future! (Oh wouldn't that be cool.)
